It's been a while(^^)

I've been posting so much on Tumblr (笑)
But I can't forget this blog (^^)

So far I've been preoccupied with a lot of things...
Honestly some parts of it make me really unhappy. (>_<)

I'm slowly starting to realize my own flaws, and possible reasons why I'm supposed to be here...I don't really mind so much anymore, although I miss everyone.

Whenever I start thinking things like "I need to change", I'm torn.

Because part of me says, "Why change?" and another continues to argue that "You're doing fine".

But I can't keep floating like this, and I'm very sad to say that maybe I just didn't grow up enough...

I have a very long way to go...and lots more things to work on...

まだまだだね。(笑)

I want to change, even if part of me does not want to.

Because maybe, it's in that change that I will finally find what I need to do...
What I need to accomplish.

I myself need to search for a higher goal, something that will always keep me going...

I think I lost my drive somewhere along the way.

And I need to find it again.

もっと頑張ります。絶対に負けない。

みんな、ありがとう。