Good news~!

I think I have a job interview tomorrow~ （笑）

I'll be going to New York tomorrow on my own. Some family friends recommended me to a company and they'll be taking me there... (^^;)

I've been very nervous about finding a job since I started living here, since I feel like everything depends on it. There are so many things I want to accomplish in my life, and somehow, having a job makes it feel a lot more possible. (>_<)

All right!

This will be a fresh, fresh start! （笑）

These are the things I want to do:

1) Study graphic and web design. Whether it's by self-study or through lessons or a school, I want to study this and become more proficient. It takes time, so I will have to make time. I've started reading and picking up my pencils again.
I'm also going to start being active on the Toradora! Tumblr that I have, as an exercise in simple things like photo editing/arranging/whatnot. I hope to get better with time.

2) Learn dance. I know it's easy to find dance studios in the area. I will learn and persevere. Hiphop and ballet, anyone? （笑）

3) In case I find it difficult to get into a dance studio, (or in addition to learning dance) I want to study a martial art. Since it promotes discipline and inner strength, and sense of self, I want to pick up one. I saw several karate studios nearby, I think it will be fairly easy to get to one.

4) This is just a side note, but as a fourth thing, I want to pass my driving test on my first try. Because I want to show up my mom who failed the written test three times (although she didn't have to take a practical.)

5) I want a place of my own, and a kitchen of my own. This is self-explanatory. I want my own apaaatoooo.

6) I'm planning to take the Japanese Language Proficiency Test in December, so I'll be self-studying and translating manga and songs as a project within the next, er, 6 months?

I think this is it for now? （笑）
My dreams aren't impossible, are they? （笑）

頑張ります!

Packing for Brooklyn~

So

I’m gonna stay overnight at a relative’s house :3

Gonna go to a food fair tomorrow :3

and

I’m going to watch Daniel Radcliffe perform in his Broadway Musical, “How to Succeed in Business Without Actually Trying”!

:o

(^^)

Ja na~

It's been a while(^^)

I've been posting so much on Tumblr (笑)
But I can't forget this blog (^^)

So far I've been preoccupied with a lot of things...
Honestly some parts of it make me really unhappy. (>_<)

I'm slowly starting to realize my own flaws, and possible reasons why I'm supposed to be here...I don't really mind so much anymore, although I miss everyone.

Whenever I start thinking things like "I need to change", I'm torn.

Because part of me says, "Why change?" and another continues to argue that "You're doing fine".

But I can't keep floating like this, and I'm very sad to say that maybe I just didn't grow up enough...

I have a very long way to go...and lots more things to work on...

まだまだだね。(笑)

I want to change, even if part of me does not want to.

Because maybe, it's in that change that I will finally find what I need to do...
What I need to accomplish.

I myself need to search for a higher goal, something that will always keep me going...

I think I lost my drive somewhere along the way.

And I need to find it again.

もっと頑張ります。絶対に負けない。

みんな、ありがとう。