Happy New Year!

I really haven't updated in a long time. I've been so busy! (笑)

Or maybe a little too lazy? (>_<)

A new year has begun and I feel like I haven't accomplished enough in the past few months!

I'm very glad though, that I haven't been completely idle. I'm grateful for the chance to work and earn money, because a lot of people are really struggling.

I must admit, though, that I do want a steadier job, even though I know that being a cashier has improved my disposition and attitude towards working. I'm glad to know from others that I've made their days brighter, and that I make people happy. The work environment also appeals so much to me that I wish I could be here for much, much longer. But I know it probably won't be permanent, and I'll have to shift somewhere else after a while. I don't want to depend on retail jobs so much anymore, as it drains a lot from the soul. Plus, as a cashier, I'm so restricted to the cash register and don't get to help people with books or merchandise as much as I'd like to.

Also, since I started work, I feel like I really haven't had enough time to do the things I wanted to accomplish. Whenever I come home from the city, it ends up being quite late. Also, I have to accompany my mom to fetch my aunt almost every night, and the back-and-forth trip takes about an hour, so that's an hour of my time taken away almost every night. In addition, it drains me of a lot of energy especially since my aunt works so late. (>_<);; I know it's not her fault and I shouldn't really blame anyone for my lack of time, but seriously, I cannot help but feel as though my own family is draining me of every spare moment I desire to use for my own little projects and needs.

It doesn't help that every time I get a day off, that day gets filled with chores that they decide to bombard on me. So it's draining in every possible sense: physically, mentally, even emotionally, I guess.

I'm sorry to sound so whiny on my first post of the year, but I guess I haven't had much time to think about this, either.

I've been feeling a lot more headaches and pains lately, even double vision. and I'm starting to be afraid that I'm also sacrificing my health for all this. I've always believed in balancing things out and I've always been confident that I've handled stress well in the past. Now, I'm not so sure (T.T);

I can feel my head swimming, even now. (>_<)

I guess this means it's time for some New Year's Resolutions? (笑)

1.) I will eat properly.
By this I mean I will also cut costs and start eating more food at home than out in the city. And by eating food at home I don't mean making instant noodles. (笑) I've said I wanted to lower my sweet intake, and honestly, this is one of the most difficult things I've had to promise myself. I need to control myself more, considering how quickly I manage to consume a box of cookies. (笑)

2.) I will have some form of good exercise every day, even if it's just a few push-ups, some ballet exercises, or even jumping jacks.
Ideally, I would have music to dance to every morning. That would be a good way to start the day.

3.) Read more books.
And by this I mean actual books, like classics, bestsellers, et cetera. I bought an e-reader expressly for this purpose, and I think I've been getting some good use out of it (^^)

4.) Write and draw more.
At least once a week I should have a few drawings completed, and some more ideas jotted down for the stories in my head. I have three different genres to write for, and I know my manga has not been properly drawn or planned out! I have to accomplish something this year! Ideally, I should have a chapter of the manga out every month. I'll see how far I can go~

5.) Following that, I will need to study my Japanese in earnest.
I have everything at my fingertips and I should not hesitate to use them.

6.)All in all...I need to take care of myself.
Because looking back, I have been very lucky in life, even if I'm not exactly where I want to be. And even though I'm not, I have the ability to get to where I want to be, if I only pick myself up and go towards it.

So I will.

I think, in the middle of everything, I've forgotten what it means to be strong. And forgotten the source of my strength.

So I'm going back.

Music, words, prayers.

I need to bring it all back.

To anyone who still passes through and reads, and checks this blog, thank you and I love you.

明けましておめでとうございます！今年もよろしくおねがいします！
皆さん、一緒に頑張りましょう!

[Happy New Year! Please be kind to me this year as well. Everyone, let's work hard together!]

I've been busy~

And I've come to realize a lot of things during the past couple of days (>_<)

Also I'm sick again (笑)

I spent quite a lot of time with the members of my family...

I'm a little shocked at myself too (笑)

Grocery shopping and preparations for Mother's day...then the celebration itself...

Amongst relatives, so many things just come to light, even if you sometimes feel that they can be a little bothersome by asking you so many things (笑)

But it was in the asking questions that I got my answers, no?

There are so many things I want to accomplish...

And sometimes I think I forget how much hard work needs to be put into them, or even the requirements for them...(^^;)

It's a little sad isn't it?

This is the first time I feel that I have been thrust forcibly into the world.

And I now realize how difficult it will be from now on (^^;)

I want to learn what it means to work hard, too.

Hopefully by setting more distinct goals for myself, I can finally start moving.

I won't give up hope!

I will pave my path, my life, and a way back to where I feel I belong.

I love you all (^^)

Recovery~

お久しぶり!（笑）

I'm finally recovering from chicken pox! At least, well enough to post a happy (but masked) photo of myself.（笑）

I haven't been able to do much the past couple of days, owing to this whole fiasco, but I was asked to burn a copy of the soundtrack of Boys Over Flowers as a gift for a family friend. I drew on the cover. （笑）


I was bored. (笑)

Till next time!

CHICKEN POX!!

..This is the first time I have ever gotten chicken pox.
...I'm not very happy about it at all (T_T) I very rarely get sick, but when I do, it's usually quite bad. (笑)
Yesterday, I managed to teach part of the Hare Hare Yukai dance to some high school students. Even though I was also supposed to come up with a dance for the song "Inori ~You Raise Me Up~" by Lena Park, I had a difficult time and asked Ochibi and Kin-chan to help out there. THANKYOU to both of you!

However, afterwards, I started to feel quite sick. I developed a fever while having dinner with my classmates in Japanese class. Thankfully I had medicine in my bag, but my condition worsened today. I officially have chickenpox. (;_;)

It was still a fun day yesterday though.. Even though I felt really bad afterwards, Ochibi, Kin-chan and I managed to have a little fun nonetheless.

Finished!!

The shrine is complete !!! (^o^)/

Thankfully, Kae came around at 5pm to help out, too. My mom and aunt really helped out, they're pretty much craft artisans and I am a mere disciple.(笑)

Felt rather sick towards the end of the evening though. (>_<) I guess it's because I'm really tired? I haven't gotten enough sleep the past two, three nights.

I'm worried about this week too! So many last minute changes are going on and I'm overwhelmed by it all.(^^;)

Adjust adjust adjust!!

頑張りましょう!!! (笑)

P.S. I had the following conversation a couple of weeks back:

Ryuacchi: THERE IS A 0.01 % DIFFERENCE BETWEEN YOUR BLOGGING AND HIS.
Me: AND WHAT IS THAT?! DD:
Ryuacchi: ...You're writing in English. XD
Me: askfldglkj;kjhldsajd;asj!!!!

(For those who get the joke, congratulations. /woes)

Sorry (;_;)

I haven't been able to update lately, i find that i've been too tired to blog and upload when i come home (T_T)

And to top it all off, yesterday was a day of absolute fail.

I collapsed in my philosophy class yesterday, making me miss half the period and miss my other class after it. bugger (>o<)

i was basically kind of conked out in the infirmary for almost 3 hours, and the nurses wouldn't let me out without a companion, so meh. (._.)

A big thank you to Kip who insisted that i go to the infirmary (>o<)/

And i will go to school soon, and drag my guitar with me so that Evil!Martin can do something with it. Booooooooooooo. (>_<)

Okai, see you all later! byebye!

Morning in the House of Sanada and Atobe

I'm still sick! (/blows nose)

I'm okay though, I just need some rest and a little medication.

In the meantime, for those who still haven't found it yet, here is a link to onemanga and New Prince of Tennis! And they updated just yesterday!

http://www.onemanga.com/New_Prince_of_Tennis/

The two latest chapters as of now aren't really chapters, per se, they're kind of like random fillers. So that's what it means when a chapter is called "18.5" or "18.6" or something. LOL.

I'm too lazy to get the pics out and I'm not sure Onemanga appreciates hotlinking images, so i will link you to the hilarious parts.

http://www.onemanga.com/New_Prince_of_Tennis/18.5/00/

18.5 is Morning in the House of Atobe, and i swear it is ABSOLUTELY RIDICULOUS.

http://www.onemanga.com/New_Prince_of_Tennis/18.5/02/

http://www.onemanga.com/New_Prince_of_Tennis/18.5/03/

SKYDIVING BATMAN ATOBE, PEOPLE. JUMPING FROM HIS VERY OWN BAT-JET OR WHATEVER YOU CALL IT. (O___o)

http://www.onemanga.com/New_Prince_of_Tennis/18.5/05/

After a spectacular fall from the sky, he finds out that he didn't need to hurry after all. (=_=;)

http://www.onemanga.com/New_Prince_of_Tennis/18.6/01/

18.6 however, is Morning in the House of Sanada, and while it makes a lot more sense, it is also completely ridiculous as well. He's moving...soybeans?! (O.o)

http://www.onemanga.com/New_Prince_of_Tennis/18.6/02/

We meet his adorable nephew! So cute~ (^o^)

(Though i have to wonder about Konomi's naming skills....)

Also, is anyone disturbed that Sanada's nephew looks like a younger Renji? O_o

http://www.onemanga.com/New_Prince_of_Tennis/18.6/03/

"OLD MAN!, OLD MAN!"

Oh, Sanada. Your straight face will get you into so much trouble. XD

http://www.onemanga.com/New_Prince_of_Tennis/18.6/05/

"TEZUKA!!"

Such hilarity, I'm so glad I found these in the morning. (^o^) A great way to start the day? XD

Now, to move those 100 soybeans...

Kidding, kidding !!

I suppose that exercise by Sanada was to improve concentration, as well as get better at handling chopsticks? Haha~

Oh oh! And did you see those little chibi!Rikkai members along the top of the page?! SO CUTE!

I have to wonder sometimes which school Konomi Takeshi prefers the most. I hope it's Rikkai~!!

After all, he did say that the most powerful player in the series was actually Yukimura (even if Echizen won the Nationals in the original Prince of Tennis. LOL. I LOVE YOU, YUKIMURA-BUCHOU~!!)

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Good morniiiiing~ orz

As much as i would have liked to tweak this blog further, i

may have to go with my family to visit the dead today, which i find odd, considering today

is "All SAINTS' day", and not "All SOULS' day". *sigh*

I guess tradition can be stronger than a holiday name, a lot of people go to the cemetery on November 1st regardless of holiday. Unless we have saints in our family. O.o

I woke up this morning with a stomachache, and with my heart pounding pretty unnecessarily. I wonder if something's up...(>_<)

If there's anything interesting, I'm gonna see if I can update later. XP